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So the house decided to walk to the grocery store which is about a mile away. I went along and wound up not being able to do it at all. I got 4/10 of a mile out and my lower back gave out on me. I couldn't keep my breath, and could not keep up at all.
I understand that everyone is concerned about me and all, but it really PISSES me off when I can't even simply keep up. I am in a "fuck it all" mood now because I failed. I hate failing, I hate it to it's core. Its not even a learning situation for me, it is a detriment to my very being. I should be better than this but I am not. I know its all emotional and most of the people I am around are logical, not emotional and all they are gonna say is "Only you can fix it." FUCK YOU! I am not telling you how I feel so that someone can fix it for me. I state it so you UNDERSTAND what I am going through. No shit "Only I can fix it", who the fuck else is going to. All you are doing by saying that to me is rubbing it in my face and implying that I am not doing a good enough job. Regardless if that was your intent. All I want is an OK that people understand, not a OK just to shut me up.
1 comment:
I hear you. I joined a gym about a month ago and I workout every day. Some days I get on the treadmill and I can walk/run a few miles butvother days like today I get on there and my shin or calf muscles get so sore I cant do it. Its very frustrating when you are ready to go mentally and then your body does not cooperate.
-RE
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